What is Fair

Sometimes I fault myself for things that occur in my life even when I know for a fact that that it's not because of me. I don't know why I do that but I assume it's only because I'm human...that's the excuse for everything nowadays! All I ask for is closure with some things but then I question myself and ask is closure even what I want. Will closure be the end all for my relationship. Will closure enhance my growth. Because whose to say that the closure will be positive. 

It's been hard these last two days to figure out exactly what I'm doing in life and where I'm trying to go. I was told that I worry about the future too much which is something that I have no control over and shouldn't strive to have control over. But the way I was raised has been to always plan ahead and know what's next! I think maybe I have taken that concept to literal and maybe too extreme. But I see this is something that I have found out about myself and I need to fix...there's a positive outlook on it.